” Traveling makes you realize how much there is in the world to be discovered, it makes you meet all the souls you need to have an encounter with to achieve a certain knowledge.” – Dafne Calderon
What are the right questions to ask when you don’t have any of the answers? For instance if the path you are on is the right one, or when you take that risk, by yourself, for yourself, knowing in your heart that it is what you truly want, how will you be brave enough to make it through? As you go along you start to have your doubts, but then just as you start to doubt yourself, a sign shows up that you are exactly where you need to be. Sometimes we are often given the signs all the time, but we are jaded to see them, we are to caught up in our heads that we are blinded by them. Then there are other times where the signs don’t stop coming, you are constantly reminded, and that my friends is the witness pure energy, of what is meant to be will find a way, and that my friends is the witness of pure love. As you continue along the way, you begin to feel things you never felt before, meet people who open your mind to new ways of thinking and feeling, and all you can think about is how you would give anything for others to just see it as well, for others to just feel it, and most of all for others to just b e l i e v e in it. To believe in a life that doesn’t have to be run by anger or stress or for the fuel of money.
I grew up around this kind of life, where work was more important than anything, it still consumes the life I grew up around, thats why I wanted to get out of it. I wanted to defy the odds, to not spend my day planning spend my nights loosing sleep over what happened that day or in fact what didn’t. I live a life where I go to sleep every night knowing I put a smile on someones face and it doesn’t have to be for a reason at all. I live a life where I spend my days laughing, keeping my humor when there is none, I live my life with a heart that is constantly giving. Please, believe me when I say it is not all cupcakes and butterflies as it seems, I am constantly faced with people asking me about my life down to the nitty gritty, “So what are you doing? How much money are you making?” La De Da La De Do, these questions mostly come from my family, of course always worried with my best interest in mind. What they don’t realize is that they have raised me and taught me in ways to live the same life as them, and what they haven’t realized is that the life they are living is nothing that should be passed down. Yes, go to grade school, go to college, get a degree, get a good job but getting this education in what? What are the schools teaching us and what effect is it really having on us? Grading our skills on how well we studied to the assigned work and see how proficient we are by testing us? This isn’t how it works anymore, we have awakened, I have awakened. The sad truth is what has made me awaken, is seeing the way they come home every day, too tired to do anything, eating foods that are microwavable, easy to make because it is too much of an effort to take care of their bodies. May they ever read this and I know they will, they have been zombiefied by the life they are living inside from out. To come home too tired to do anything but watch TV, what kind of lesson does that teach your children? By any means is my writing made to bash my family, in no means ever. They provided me with everything and anything I ever wanted growing up and I am eternally grateful for never having to struggle, go hungry, they provided it all, but when it comes down to it, what is more important material and possessions or attention and love?
I started to rebel when I turned 13, I started smoking weed, partying, sneaking out on the weekends. To go into the psychology of why I did this at this point, I don’t think is necessary to explain, I know I was spoiled, and selfish, but at the same time I know I was craving a love I didn’t feel and turned to drugs to find it. After a couple years of still not receiving that love, I finally was turned on to reading Thich Nhat Hanh, where I found mediation and self reflection, where I finally began to look within. I realized after all this time, it was myself that I wasn’t giving enough love, no matter the love from my parents how much they gave me or how little, it depended on the love that I gave myself that depended on how I feel. I still struggle with it today, with the things I do, the traveling I do, whether I hear from my family or not, no curiosity as to what my day consists of, any phone call that passes by is only of a quick hello or a quick goodbye, sometimes they mention work and how tired they are but that is mostly it. Over the years I have accepted that, it is not about the love you receive, its about the love you give. I used to feel bad for those who get so angry and have lost thrill for life, but now I don’t feel bad anymore, I just see a lack a love, the same lack of love that I stopped giving myself. So all I can do is show people love, show my father, my mother love, no matter how much it hurts for them not to ask about me. Sometimes its just simply not about that, you won’t always get the love you need from others, but you certainly can give the love, that they need to receive. So, “Here’s to just keep showing love, no matter what, because he, she, they, you, stopped loving themselves.”
I can now look back and laugh because if I never made that choice, I would never feel the way I feel today, and the way I feel today is free. For the ones who can’t make the choice to just quit their jobs, or just do something they have been wanting to and are always putting excuses in front of it, whatever it may be that you know you have been wanting to do, I’m telling you this is your sign and DO IT. Do not let it be something you dream or talk about the rest of your life. For the one’s that you see yelling in line to get their coffee after waiting 3 minutes, just smile at these people and give them love. I’ve learned thats all people truly need, they stopped loving themselves, they stopped doing what they really wanted to and now live a life of anger, fear, and sadness. So shower those people with love…of course it is easier said then done. I saw a man at the airport the other week and he was getting so upset because he did not hear his group called getting on the airplane, and when everyone started passing him in line, he blew up screaming, “Why do all these people get to go in front of me? What about group 2? When was group 2 was called?!” Had it only been minutes before, he was so unaware because he was on his phone, he missed it, and for someone to get that angry when all they would be doing is sitting on a plane just a bit earlier than everyone else, instinctively I laughed, how can someone be so naive? But in fact I am just as naive for laughing at him. Who am I to laugh at someone, who is possibly dealing with business, family issues, whatever it may be on his phone? For him to respond in anger only shows he is going through something which he is truly not at peace with, and how else to help someone but to simply just show them love?
Traveling makes you slow down in life and it literally just puts you in a place where it shows you where people need love. It literally shows you what you can give others. What they don’t have and what you can offer, and once you realize that, you never want to stop giving or in fact traveling. Traveling brings new light to every dark corner, because you are constantly faced with new people, new challenges where your light has never been before. So all I can ask in this closing is, lets just simply help others to believe again, by believing in each other, we can inspire others to believe in themselves, to love themselves. So put on that Beatles song, sing, dance, remember the sun always rises after a dark night, an angry voice, or a broken heart.. H e r e C o m e s T h e S un . . . Rise and Shine P.S Let’s give this term an actually meaning. Do Do Do Do.. When I say… It’s going be alright <3